soooo long nv post le.. blog rotting le.. lol. also dno wt to sae.. new coach came fer e 1st time.. nt bad bt abit strict.. dno if we will hav ani achieve aniting b4 i go.. i feel lyk giving up everything.. i feel lyk jus having nth and jus study.. bt i jus cnt bear to give up aniting tt i had nw. i wrk so hard for everything.. wt i had nw is all my hard wrk.. wt i had achieve is all the hard wrk tt i put in.. im e capt for track and bball nw.. mayb some ppl will tink im nt worthy it. bt its ok to mii. sometimes i realli tink if im suitable for it.. for bball, for so long, we nv win aniting.. i nv lead e team to aniting.. im jus as gd as nth.. for track, altho i won a medal, bt after i took over e team, e team has slacked.. everyone is leaving.. jess is leaving.. i nv expect tt she will leave.. shes one of e most faithful gal to track.. shes also e one who accompany mii wen im bored during trning.. bt we r lyk strangers nw.. i also dno y.. haiis.. i realli dun wan to see her leave.. i tink its a wrong choice to be e capt.. i nv do aniting for e team.. i nv contribute much to e team.. our team is nearly hopeless nw.. nobody wanna trn hard, nobody wanna put in effort.. im realli sick and tired of everything. i jus nid a break.. and its nt tt i dowan to go to church.. bt den im jus too bz and i cnt find ani time.. i made a promise and i wun break tt promise.. this sun i will go no matter wt.. bt den nxt time i can onli go if im free.. haiis.. im seriously burnout..
