finally we toked, yet the feeling is nt the same animre.. u seems to be like a stranger to mii.. u seems to avoid mii.. i tink its time to move on.. its nv gd to keep holding on to stuff tt is impossible.. yet im such a fool to tink tt things is nv impossible.. im had been a fool for so long.. its time to face the fact.. its time to give up.. its e end.. things will nv come true..
haiis..
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YuenChai.17:40
siian siian siian.. nth to do.. hols also e same.. can onli study.. i hope i can pass mii maths.. bt i cnt anione to help mi nw.. looking at e txtbk and noe nth, i dun hav ani mood to study at all.. i depend on ppl too much, and i cnt do aniting on my own nw.. can anione help mii nw..? ppl around mii seems to all drift away frm mii.. i dno y i would hav this feelings.. haiis.. i hate this feeling.. i hate loneliness.. would 'you' be there nw? to be wif mii? haiis..
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YuenChai.17:23
haiis.. i shud nt hav called her.. i tink she is angry wif mi nw ba.. haiis.. bad bad dae todae.. i dno wt i can sae nw.. im jus so sry.. so sry tt i create trouble for u.. haiis.. im so sry..
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YuenChai.20:24
hi everyone. long time no post. haha. some chio bu ask mi to update so im here to update le.. feel honoured. CHIO BU!! haha. gt bac all my results le.. failed 3 subs.. im quite happy la.. improve alot.. frm 6 sub till 3 sub.. eoy if i can fail 1 sub onli i will be damn happy la.. haha. hols coming.,. bt i dun tink i will enjoy it.. hope everyone wun be so bz during e hols ba.=)
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YuenChai.19:10
woots. went bbq todae.. quite fun la. .wif kenneth boi boi ah lam they all.. todae bbq get to noe them btr and became mre familiar wif them le.. ahha. tml gt 3on3 tornament.. lx suddenly cannot.. zzz.. nth to sae.. hope we wun lose all e match ba..
everyone is changing nw.. and im always e one to put in e most effort and gets nth.. wen ur lonely and feeling low, who is by ur side? bt nw u r attached, im forgotten.. suan le ba? bro is nt for life de.. onli gals are for life..
enjoyed mii dae todae.. its time to study hard!!=))
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YuenChai.01:33
24th of aug.. 23rd is a nice date to mi.. i stiu rmb wt date izzit.. wt used to be is memorable, and u would miiss it.. bt would it be bac to u is another qn..
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YuenChai.00:47
siian siian siian.. this yr is definitely nt a yr for mi.. at 1st intend to study, bt den jiu shi cnt concentrate.. den thot sept hols will be gg out, in e end tink nt le ba.. haiis.. siian.. if i retain this yr jiu quit sch.. lol.
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YuenChai.18:23
tml is last dae of exam le.. finally.. todae paper sux la.. f&n sure die liao.. nv study at all.. a maths can onli do abit.. zzz.. jus wake up frm my nap.. tml is chem.,. todae die also mus study.. i passed mi physics, 21/40.. one of e lowest.. abit sad la.. bt at least i passed. lol. if chem i pass jiu can pass mi sci overall liao.. so mus chiong le..
ysd paper was ez.. someone asked mii if i bluff her cos i wanna make her happi.. physics and hist was tt dae de paper, i pass physics le.. hist also no prob.. so believe mi le ba? the ger.. haha. i hope to see u SMILE!=) feel happy for mii ba.. hehe.
wt nv meant to be urs will nv ever be urs..
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YuenChai.16:58
stressed stressed stressed!! im jus hopeless.. no matter what i try, hw much i work hard, it seems useless.. when exams come, fail is e onli wrd i can see.. everydae fail fail fail.. i tink i dowan study le.. someone told mii, "god onli help those who help themselves." bt i dun believe anione can help mii nw.. i jus so pessimistic.. im jus so stubborn.. wen i choose to give up, i will nv try again. things that i dun hope to see jus keep happening.. i wan all my close ones to stay happy.. bt all my closes one hav their prob, no one is happy..
my dearest meii, its nt ur fault wen u nv help mii.. and it will nv be.. u hav ur things to do.. its alrite tt u cnt find time to help mii.. if i noe u r so sad and so emo, i wun tell u aniting le.. haiis.. cheer up yea? i hope to see u smile.. dun ever cry again yea? i will always be there for u.. i dowan to be a burden to u.. and if u dun mind, i will lend u my ears and u can pour out ur sorrow to mii yea? CHEER UP AND SMILE!!=))
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YuenChai.20:43
start of common test wk todae.. 3 papers in a row, higher mother tongue, English and geography.. siian la.. todae geo paper, study quite alot de, bt den wen i see e paper.. my mind was in a blank.. haiis.. study so much in e end rmb nth.. dno if i shud study animre.. study le lyk no use at all.. tml maths and high mother tongue paper 2.. no mood to study at all.. so didnt study at all.. dun care le.. maths dun nid study de.. dowan waste time liao..
went out with gabriel ..he lyk dowan to go out de.. lyk i force him lidat.. felt v bad la.. den i nth to sae.. haiis.. bt den after tt jiu ok liao.. went plaeground to slack and tok.. we both v emo la.. tok bout our past and all our sad stuff.. i suddenly feel tt he had alot to sae, jus tt he has no one to tok to.. i also gt alot to sae, bt dno hw to tell him.. haiis.. siian.. life is so boring.. cnt even be happy for one whole dae.. we are both stupid guy.. sad over gals.. haiis.. hope this common test will do btr ba..
i wanna jus tok to u.. its enuff to jus tok to u.. will u?
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YuenChai.22:21
tml common test le!!! siian.. nvm.. 1 wk onli.. jus study geo abit.. realli abit onli.. haha. see if luck is on my side a nt ba.. everyone seems moodless to study.. im so stressed la.. everyone onli sae study hard study hard.. u tink i dowan ah? is i dno hw to.. haiis.. who can ask mi hw i feel?
wt i hope for most nw is toking to u.. even if its jus 5 min, i also happy.. i nv tok to u for 2 daes le.. haiis.. 2 daes seems 2 yrs to mii.. i realli cnt take it wen i dun tok to u.. i miises u loadds.. do u noe? i noe u dowan to noe, u wanna act blur.. bt can u jus tink hw would i feel? or shud i sae, do u care hw i feel? u told mi to cheer up everytime, bt do u noe wt can realli cheer mii up? u act blur, u pretend tt u dno, bt i hav eyes to see.. i noe tt u uds.. bt i can sae nth.. cos its up to u.. haiis..
hope i can do well tml ba..
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YuenChai.23:14
jus reach hm. haha. slacked wif gab and fu xiang.. exam coming on mon le.. siian.. mus study hard le.. if nt jiu sure retain liao.. lol. todae was quite a fun dae.. went gym, slack and plae bball.. gab can considered mii best bro liao la.. everytime no matter i happy or sad jiu shi he peii mii de.. haha. thks. bro. i hope common test will be over soon.. cos i will be able to see u again.. study study study..
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YuenChai.01:16
haiis.. im so tired.. im so tired after doing so much.. i seriously hav no mre energy to do aniting animre.. i dno wt can i do nw.. things tt i dun hope for keep happening.. things tt i waited for will nv ever appear.. haiis.. wt shud i do nw? i feeling lyk holding on to it and dun let go... bt i dun i can do so.. its so tiring to keep wrking.. and its disappointing to get nth in e end.. i hope to give it my best for everything, yet things screwed up every single time.. i wan to plae bball well, yet nan chiau can nv give mii wt i wan.. i wanna do well for my track, yet nan chiau cnt give mi wt i wan too.. i wish to see u, yet i dun hav e chance.. i wanna tok to u, yet u r so busy tt i cnt even tok to u mre than 5 msg.. i waited for u to come online, yet u r so busy tt u hav no time to online.. haiis.. all my waiting is useless.. its jus so hopeless.. im hopeless.. my life is hopeless.. im jus lyk a stupid fool waiting for miracles to happened.. im jus hoping u to noe hw im feeling, yet it seems lyk u will nv uds.. i realli wanna noe, if u dun uds, or u dowan to uds? i jus wan an ans.. i jus cnt bring myself to give up, after what i hav done.. i jus cnt bring myself to forget u... what i hav nw is onli memoriies, and all e memoriies tt makes mii tink of u. i realli miisses u loadds.. will u ever noe it? haiis..
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YuenChai.21:12
i hate it most wen ppl hav something to sae, yet keep it to themselves and tell other ppl bout it.. i can sae tt i have done alot, i put in alot, im serious bout u.. i don nid aniting much.. seeing u makes mii happy enuff.,. yet, after wt i have done, wt i get is onli pain.. i realli wanna tok to u, tell u hw i feel, bt i dun hav e chance at all.. nw tt he's bac.. i tink im nt needed animre le.. haiis.. i shud jiu leave u all alone.. cos im jus an extra guy.. fking life.. haiis..
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YuenChai.21:57
so long nv update le.. dno wt to update sia.. exam coming le.. bt i dun realli care.. lol. i dun believe in wrking hard animre.. i realised tt even if u put in 1o1% of effort, u mayb nt even get 1% bac in e end.. u may jus end up losing everything.. haiis.. im sick and tired of this.. if i had to fail, let it be.. i dun give it a damn animre.. haiis.. things seldom go e way u wan.. everyone comes to mii wen they r unhappy, bt does anione know hw im feeling and hw unhappy i am? who can i tok to wen i nid someone? no one knows.. haiis..
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YuenChai.16:33
i realli missing u alot.. i wanna see u everydae, i wanna be wif u.. haiis.. bt its lyk more and more impossible everydae.. im stiu waiting.. i dowan to give up so easily.. bt its jus so tiring, so torturing to keep holding on to wt seems far frm it.. i tink it will nv be mine? chances are so slim, can things ever change for the btr? i can nv get wt i wan forever.. i realli miiss u alot, i reali love u alot.. haiis.. <33
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YuenChai.23:05
todae was seriously a boring dae.. reach home after doing maths in sch.. 1st time sia.. do maths in sch.. finished and hand in chapt 7.. stiu gt chapt 8.. siian.. maths makes mii feel tired after doing it.. gt daiji again.. siian.. everytime i try to keep away frm daiji, it will come looking for mii.. tml gg to chu sai.. whole dae sia.. damn tired nw.. realli wanna slp, bt cannot.. haiis.. hope tml will be a btr dae..
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YuenChai.23:00
im addicted to u.. haiis..
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YuenChai.23:12
woots. finally went out wif the big bz women le.. haha. enjoyed mii dae todae loadds.. and i finally saw ur stead le.. haha. he's quite quiet.. went to buy eileen present and buy the big bz women stead's bdae present too.. haha. choose a bag.. 55 dollars? haha. ok la.. nt realli ex.. cause we are sharing.. haha. forget to bring maths txtbk home.. tml mus choing all my wrk le.. i shall try to wrk a little bit harder ba. haha. TRY abit..
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YuenChai.23:09
im loving u more and more each dae.. it seems lyk i cnt stop loving u.. altho the chance of u noeing hw i feel is slim, bt i dun mind.. i realli hope u will noe hw i feel, bt i cnt let u noe.. i realli hope u can be with mii, bt it seems impossible.. mayb it will nv come true.. im jus lost in my own world, waiting aimlessly.. even if u noe, u also wun do aniting.. hope u will last long with ur guy.. haiis..
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YuenChai.23:41
finally going out wif u le.. i hav been waiting for this dae for months.. i thot u couldnt make it again, cos u gt loadds of test this wk.. bt im tinking too much.. haha. hope nth will go wrong again.. everytime something will go wrong.. zzz.. im so happi!! haha.=D
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YuenChai.23:38
