i realised tt im having chalet on 12,13,14 and overseas frm 15 to 22.. siian.. no time to wrk. means no pay.. i dowan to go hols.. i wanna wrk.. lol. ok. im abit crazy.. money money.. everything is about $$.. boring life.. at least i get some time to relax.. lost without you.. i had nth mre to sae.. haiis.. its all my decision.. blame myself is e only thing i can do.. cheer up is something impossible for mi nw.. hols is something i hope it will nv come, cos it gives mi time to think bout e past.. and i can nv get out of this.. my life is full of worries and troubles.. haiis.. i jus wan a peaceful life.. its a small little wish.. when will i be able to get it? god noes.. bt i dun trust him.. thr is no one i can trust nw.. except some.. really some.. sad for mi.. saddedd life.. saddedd mii.. saddedd fate.. i feel so low, so miserable, so lonely, so empty.. hw am i gonna live on lyk this? im seriously lost.. i cnt find my way out.. its jus all darkness in my life.. i cnt see my dreams, im a perfect failure.. i cnt get aniting done at all nw.. pls do not be lyk mii.. cos im jus a hopeless kid waiting to rot my life away.. sry to those who are supporting mii all along bt nw, i jus dno hw to stand up again.. i jus fell too hard.. tt i cnt find any way i could heal myself and stand up again.. at least nt nw.. someone pls help mii.. im drowning.. im dying.. im suffering.. is this really wt i deserve? i hope nt.. i dun tink i deserve to suffer so much.. haiis.. i wanna stand up and start anew again.. help mi, will u?
